Starting at 11:54 PM; Tuesday, September 06, 2011
I have no idea what to type about.. Hmmmm
At the moment I am on Skype with the love of my life, Matthew.. :)
Okay.. So, I am currently in my third week of sophomore year of high school. Everything seems to be going great, other than the fact that I have notice my attitude changing very quickly. I am not sure if it's because my dad is currently TDY or if it's because most of the friends I had at only just 3-4 months ago are completely against me. Many things happened and I do not feel I should post them on here because it's way to long.
Now, I am wanting to change the topic.. For the month of September there are a few important things happening. First, my boyfriend and his little sister are being adopted. Second, on the 18th Matthew and I will have been going out for six months. Our time together has been wonderful. I wouldn't say it's been the smoothest relationship but it's definitely the most delightful thing one could ever imagine. I am so in love with him and I want to be with him for the rest of my life. I never thought I would ever be this close to anyone but the whole time I've known Matthew I have been a whole new person. Before he came into my life I was depressed and I felt alone. I thought that after my ex, Justin, that I would never be the same. I figured I was scarred because of him. Now that Matt and I are together he has fixed my broken heart and added on to it. If anything were to happen to him I don't know what I would do. I have a DailyBooth and one day I posted about how he made me feel in almost the perfect words::
I love this boy to death. He is my hero. If it weren't for him I don't know what I would do. I hate it when he is sick because she doesn't deserve to suffer. Matthew deserves anything and everything.
He has saved me from doing some of the stupidest things you'd imagine one would do to themselves. Including death. He makes sure I am safe all the time and he puts me before himself. When I am sick or just on my period, he is there for me. He gets me waters and midol/motrin when I need it. No matter how rude I am to him, he understands.
Those times where I am sad and I just need to be held, he doesn't even need me to tell him, he'll come up to me and just hold me.
He is starting is Senior year this year and I am starting my sophomore year. After high school we will be married and Matthew will be in the Air Force. I am afraid for him to be leaving for things such as basic training, tech school, and TDY but those are the things a military wife has to go through and I am willing to do it.
Matthew is my shoulder to cry on. He is my love. He is the reason I get up in the morning. The one that stays up on the phone with me until I fall asleep. He is my hero. I am going to be with him until the day I die because I am so in love with this man. 3.18.11<3
Matthew really does mean everything and I realize that now.. I came on here to post about some people who used to be my best friends and I turned out talking about what really matters in my life, Matthew. I know those of you who are reading this don't really care that much about what I am saying but I started this blog so I could let out my feelings.
Writing tonight has helped me realize why I am at the point in my life that I am. It has also made me realize that I am in love with Matthew and no one, not even my best friends came or can come in the way of my love for him.
It's getting late and I want to call Matt so I am getting off of here.
Bye.
-Stefanie
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