Change is good, sometimes. Change hurts, sometimes.

So, here it is 2012 and things are 100% different than how they were 365 days ago..
One year ago I was doing poorly in school, I was never going to school, I was not involved in anything except for band, I had no plans for my future, I was considered family to my boyfriends family, and I was visiting the Lockwoods practically every day. That has all changed. I have not missed a day of school in a long while, I am actually making a C or higher in all of my classes, I am in AFJROTC and the band, I help out with the drama department, I set a goal to go to college, my boyfriends family hasn't seen me nor have they talked to me for a few months now, I am not considered family either.
Most of this change is wonderful, I can finally see that I am growing up, I can thank Matthew for helping me accomplish that. Some of this change was my worst nightmare. Now the man I looked at as a second father doesn't like my father and so now I am no longer to see my boyfriend or his family unless we're at school. To make all of this worse, Matthew is leaving for basic training in August and he is graduating in a week. I don't even hey to celebrate him graduating with the family. I don't know if anyone knows how much all of this hurts me but it really does hurt more than anything. I feel as if I was kicked out of my own family, and that's pretty much how it was. The Lockwood always cared for me. They took me places, we ate dinner together mostly every night, we laughed together, we've cried together and I was even there for family discussions. I hope someday that all of this will change because I miss them all so much.