It's been a while.

Hey, I know it's been a long time. I planned on posting at least once a week if not everyday. Obviously that didn't work out to well. I'm not all that sure why I didn't keep up. I guess I just got caught up in my life which I shouldn't have. 
A lot has happened since my last blog. 


I've had my heart broken and put back together by the same person only for them to hurt me again. I've grown closer to my older sisters and brother but further away from my parents and younger sister. I know that it's not the best thing in the world but I really can't help it. 
I have always hated my mother, sadly. At the same time she has always hated me, or at least she has always made it seem that way. I guess that's just the way it's always going to be. She has never liked the things I do and the choices I made and I have to say the same thing about her. It hurts to know that I feel this way about my own mother but I don't really feel like I should give her respect. Sure, if it wasn't for her I wouldn't be around but I would be a lot better if she wasn't here. She never does anything to help or support me and I am tired of it. Not only have I drifted apart from my mother but I've done the same with my father. My dad and I had a cool relationship but it wasn't very strong and after a while it faded. Now the only reason we talk is because I am in band I want to tell him something about it. 


I am depressed a lot lately though no one will talk to me about it. I think it's because they are tired of hearing the same thing from me and it's annoying. It could also be the fact that I act like I am happy and so no one knows that anything is wrong so they can't really do anything about it. 


I recently love bike riding. It's fun, I get exercise, and I can go exploring. Riding my bike isn't near my family and the little friends I have either so I can easily clear my mind. 
  
There is really nothing more I have to say. I thought I would have more but this is kind of a lot anyways. I will see y'all next time I suppose. I haven't any idea as to when that may be but that time will come before the end of this year. 


Bye bye for now. :)


Oh, here is a picture of myself. I will put one in each of my blogs. 

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